Notes to Myself-January 2016
When things go wrong and we get uprooted, what if that’s not life being against you, or life being harsh? What if those moments are a divine storm? And what if those moments are happening because all the things that don’t serve our greatest potential and our spiritual path are being uprooted not to punish you, but for your best interests? What if your worst week or your worst day was divinely sent, and actually your greatest day?” -- Mastin Kipp
My Mom has always said that our life path was like a magnificent tapestry. Woven, threads crossing threads, colors on colors. We walk through our lives only seeing the jumbled mass of stitches and strings on the back. But, every now and again in life...once in a very long while...we have a moment when the picture is clear and we see ever so briefly what we are weaving...and then it disappears once again. These moments of clarity help us to know our purpose and, although brief, the moment can transcend time and carry us through until the next viewing.
When I read Mastin Kipp’s thoughts on bad or negative moments actually being part of a divine storm, my mother's words came back. I think because I am feeling that my world is in such a state of flux as I move into my 60th year soon, I am holding tight to the inner knowing that the threads of the tapestry are still intertwining… just as the Universe directs... all is in order. But oh how lovely it would be for one of those clear viewings right about now!.
And how I wish, for just a brief while, this divine storm I am living would quiet. I want to trust in your words Mastin Kipp…..and I do, usually..….but how I need some calm from the storm.
While walking this morning It occurred to me that perhaps it is time to try and draft what I know of my life. Bullet points of moments in time...an outline of my story. Walk through scenes of time….write them...watch them….and see what becomes clear. Maybe a simple bullet list chronologically….leave the subjective for another chapter...focus only on the occurrences that seem to be focal points in my mind. Perhaps this will help guide me from the storm...into the clarity of the overall beauty I am creating?
And the clarity came. Two months later and I have completed a book that has been in the making for a year. It will launch soon - next month in fact!
Funny, an exercise in looking at the important events in my life was like a momentary turn of the tapestry; everything was clear for a few glorious minutes - A few minutes which allowed me to move forward with conviction.
I wonder what the next glimpse will show.....